Estelle Goh
CHIJ Secondary TP
ijestelle@hotmail.com
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1. Improve and sharpen my Dance Techniques
2. Book Vouchers, so that I can buy lots' of em
3. Pick up a new skill during the holidays
4. Spend more time with God
5. Carolling with the Llamas again!
6. Picnics, sleepovers, shopping with the Sixsomes & Llamas
7. Catching up time with friends
8. Christmas with the folks in malaysia
9. Become a better person

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Good morning dearest blogger! :D

Let's say, Good afternoon blogger?
It's 5, and we're in the middle of the day.
Somehow I'm still having a sore throat and a fever, they can't seem to get away can they?
Anyways, I skipped classes today as instructed by mummy.
Managed to watch a few movies which she got me, hmmm..Material Girls, Bring It On 4, Because I Said So.
I was just blog galivanting, haha Stephen eventually blogged his ever so long post as promised, and Bryan got himself a blog too :D Cool huh?
I think it's always interesting to read posts from a guy's perspective, it tells you things about their personality.
and IT ALWAYS MAKES ME LAUGH, haha like how they express themselves.
Step Up 2's coming to theatre's on the 13 March, I can't wait to catch it!
Anyone interested to come along with me? :D
A little company would make it more enjoyable right!
Just found out that my friends from India, remember I went that last year, yeah yeah those people I've met, yup they're coming in July! That's wonderful news, I'm so excited like I can't wait to show them how my school's like, how Singapore's different from Bangalore, introduce my friends to them!
I know, you may laugh, but deal with it :D
THAT'S JUST ME, ESTELLE.

alright, I'm not sure what else to post so, thats all for today!
wish me luck for tomorrow (:

toodles!

HELLO MAMAS;
I think I must have scared all of you with my ''oh-so-emo'' posts yesterday.
HAHA! I'm so sorry, melancholy was in the air then!
Thanks so much yall for showing the love, especially nut & mar :D
appreciate it a lot! like really a lot!
I just realised that Estee sounds quite cool, it seems like some brand.
OH OH! Estee Lauder :D Haha yay, I got it right.
& I'm back to what I am.
Anyways, my sore throat got worst, I totally lost my voice.
Best part was, I actually went for the G.Leadership hike thing at MacRitchie.
we walked all the way from there to Bukit Timah Nature Reserve's Summit.
I'm having this phobia of that place now, it freaks me, we walked for 5 hours non-stop,
hmmm..since 8-2? okay that's more than 5 hours.
but it was worth it, pretty fun talking to Macho all the way frm the start, him eavesdropping on my conversation with Ru. Hahaha! 3,2,1 , Action * say in a gay voice*
that was our group's cheer. retarded I know.
When we came back, we saw some Cath High guys , and these other students from I dont know which school. Typical IJ girls would wanna go check it out right! Haha, that's what makes it so fun to be an IJ Girl! Talking about schools, I didn't attend the Open Symp. @ SOTA today, I was sick and Mummy didn't wanna pangseh me :D So we decided to go for the 5 April one.
Back to where I was, we had a cool debrief in class, and then it was off for me to run my errands.
I had to find Mrs Zailee to collect the Giselle tickets, find Ms Tan for the lent consent form, see Mr Leonard after debrief, and attend Danceworks (:
Lot's of things happening tomorrow, Giselle! It's a dance performance at Esplanade, I'm going with Ru, Nut, Jelly and Lyn.
Apparently I've been given the honour to cover English lessons tomorrow about Debate structures from Mr Leonard. I'm pretty excited, you know it's Debate week!
But, MY VOICE AIN'T GOOD AT ALL.
Will upload the pictures soon :D

off to sneezing world.

You know there are a million things going through my mind now, how I wish blogger could just read them all out and save me the effort of typing it all out here.
Okay, let's face it. I'm being emotional now.
It sucks real bad, I'm sick and I'm down.
Where is everybody?
Where am I? What am I doing? What is wrong with me?
Inside me now, I feel anger, I don't know why. I think I'm angry with myself.
like what is it that I want? Who do I live for?
It's like being kept in this superficial world, where my answers are given to me like a silver spoon in my mouth.
Everyone says, live for your parents, live for yourself, live for your friends.
Really?
Really, do I have to be all that to be normal?
Like what on earth am I talking about?
Those small hints have come in small ways, telling me that I'm seeking for a change.
Why do people even love me? No no no no no no.
regardless of what I do, it'll always be '' we/I love you, no matter what! Stay strong Estelle!''
Strong? Whoa.
that word seems powerful to me now.
I've lost it man. It's gone, it's all gone.
I'm no more the old ME, I'm the new ME.
I HATE IT, THIS SUCKS, IT'S AWFUL.

JUST SCREW MY BLOG.

Baby's back to visit me again. I hate the symptoms, all the cramp and mood swings ):
especially since there's dance tomorrow and on tues...
Cath class today was pretty boring, I didn't quite understand the video about the priest preaching, so when people laughed I laughed. The only thing I could absorb was '' God is Love!''
Nut, just would like to let you know that no matter how many people who hate you, the llamas, and me will ALWAYS LOVE YOU! You're so dear to each one of us, it pains us to see you like that okay :D Be happy, for me at least alright (:
Anyways, we had lunch at macs again, hahaha it's like the only place which is air-conditioned and economical. We've been talking about how we shouldn't go to macs always, but still we keep going there every sunday.
Gift bearers today was so much more enriching and interesting. I learnt a new term!
Jenny-flect ( sp? ) HAHA, sorry I dont know how to spell it.
When your right leg kneels down, thats called the Jenny-flect!
hahaha, shawn wong came to train us, it's pretty scary that he is so disciplined and organised.
We went into the sacristy and saw some wacky pictures of the altar boys.
I realised that it takes so much to be an altar boy, like you know the blog reflects how organised they are, and they even have the de-merit points system.
I was suppose to study after I got home, but I ended up taking a nap because I was sooo tired.
Before that I was emo-ing. Funny huh? Estelle being emo. like no way.
Nah yes way luh, everything's been happening so fast lately, tht it hits you between the eyes.
slowly, I read all the lovely letters that the llamas wrote me, I've been there for everyone, but have I been there for myself? That sorts of scare me.
I've been running away from all my responsibilities in life, keeping them out of mind.
Thinking that it'll be, out of sight, out of mind.
I guess I was just stupid and silly.
ohs whatever.
):

Yellow to everyone! I haven't been posting lately, ahhh can't afford much time to blog about life. Apparently I've gotta be more specific, according to Ms Mariel Chee.
Okay, i'll try my best alright :D
and so this week's the valentine's week, pretty cool, there was total defence day too!
I'll start with Valentine's Day itself.
It was the day where I practically went cuckoo, I had too many things to do at one shot, and being the un-organised me, flopped everything.
I had to share my reflections and do a prayer on the N.E message in front of the whole school.
LOVE THE PRESENTING, hate the writing.
You know I wasn't suppose to do the prayer thing, then the girl who was suppose to do it came late and pang seh me 3 mins before assembly started. Ms Mara made me say the prayer of st francis song as a prayer. It was like this '' Today, I would like to share with you a PEACE prayer, make me a channel of your peace....''
HAHA, the school's reaction was super funny from my bird's eye view.
They were like '' Why in the world is this girl, reciting a hymn as a prayer?''
Reason :Dude, I didn't prepare for anything :D
OKAY OKAY, the reflection was messed up too.
But the teacher's thought that I was very good, even when I went to the toilet and met Mrs Matthews there, she felt that I was excellent.
So I guess I should feel great too? (:
Anyways, we also had the class photoshoot, in which I had to change into my council uniform.
Somehow, the uniform makes my upper torso look really wider than normal, I don't know why. Guess what, I went to 6 people asking them if they knew how to tie a tie. But they didn't so in the end I asked the photographer to help.
That's why, this has been my new goal for the month.
Learning how to tie a tie.
because, from my perspective luh, next time my husband goes to work, and I don't know how to tie a tie, then that's pretty sad. My husband won't love me as much as if I knew how to do it for him. HAHAHA! Don't laugh at me okay, I'm serious serious (:
After photoshoot, I rushed down to the council room to deliver flowers!
I was delivering it to 4/7, FLOWERS FOR MY VALENTINE!
Ahhhh, so nice so nice.
ANYWAYS, this year I broke last year's record.
I received the most flowers, cards and other stuffs from lovely people.
8 people sent me roses to my class, HAHA, and then one of them was like this anonymous person who called herself XOXO.
HAHA, dearest xoxo, if you are reading this now, I thank you for the lovely flower,
but please tell me who you are so that I'll remember you too! :D
then I got a bouquet of flowers from someone else. ssshhh.
and loads of touching letters!
After school, Mel, Janet, Ru and I went for lunch at pizza hut. HAHAHAHA super high there luh!
Ru was suppose to be my valentine, and then vice versa for Mel & Janet, so we were on double dates :D AHH so fun so fun.
THEN THEN THEN.
Ru & I went to the toilet, but there was only 1 cubicle. We started fighting about who should go in first, and compared who needed it more, and we were laughing as we were fighting, that one pizza hut lady who wanted to come in, thought we were lesbians and she quickly said sorry and closed the door. HAHAHAHAHA. Quite retarded luh.
We wanted to watch P.S I Love You, but I gues it'll jst be over-rated on Vday.
WE DECIDED TO BE CARING FRIENDS, and gave a surprise visit to the poor lyn.
She's down with tonsil-ly-tis ( sp? ) , much better now after the injection.
We sort of caught her red-handed, cause when we were at the gate of her house she was still on the phone, so we started asking if she was talking to Marcus, but that dodo girl denied.
HAHAH! Then when we were going upstairs to her room, Janet saw Lyn's phone, the conversation with Marcus had not ended yet, like she didn't press the end call button thing properly, he heard everything that we said luh.
You know if I were Lyn, I would be really embarassed, haha getting caught red-handed.
We watched the suite life of zack and cody in her room, camwhored a bit too.
I felt like attending mass, so I went for mass :D
I was a little late, saw the whole merbrothers clique, plus wonderful ALEX! :D
it was her grandmama's death aniv. , quite cool to die on vday.
met mummy for dinner at sushi tei :D binging session again.

OH GOSH, see my posts is damn long ):

15/2
It's Total Defence Day! :D This post I have to summarise cannot be specific, if not poor you who's reading it. Okay okay, so there was the siren thing at 12, the whole school gathered at the court, only to find out that 2 girls were kidnapped! *dang dang dang*
Who were the 2 girls?
HAHA. Janet & me :D
we were hiding in the chapel, as instructed to, we weren't allowed to say anything even if someone found us.
We sorta got excited and decided to be a bit drama and make it more interesting.
So you know the pews were in a row, both of us lied down at the part where u know you kneel, then our heads were the only thing that could be seen when you entered the chapel.
Mag low and some other teacher came in only to be shocked!
I swear they went hysterical!
'' Oh my goodness! A girl has fainted! OH MY GOODNESS, there's another one! Call the teachers!''
I REALLY WANTED TO LAUGH AT THAT TIME.
soon they found out it was for TDD, and had a good laugh.
went for stations of the cross, after dance with mar & alex.

16/2
Blessing of my home. Father Leo came to my house to have mass, and bless the house.
Something I do every year, post cny.
everyone came to my house. binging session again on those yummy stuff.
We were all suppose to go for Chingay tonight, but I was tired so I passed.
I slept from 4 something all the way till 11.30pm.
Imagine how tired can I be to sleep that long.
I'm working on the llamas & m.brothers' vday cards for tomorrow.
:D
cath again! love it to the max.

Light Skin, Dark Skin, My Asian Persuasion,

Good morning blogger and to you who's reading this now!

Yesterday

I was beat up tired tired, haha because I came back pretty late from CHIJMES on sunday.
My eyelids were super heavy during history class, I practically slept throughout. That pretty
much happened for the next few lessons, but I already learnt the stuff tht the teachers were
teaching so it's okay! Perked up after recess, gotta work on this reflection thing for the NE message, which I would have to share with the school on thurs a.k.a Valentine's Day! I totally forgot about the Hip Hop item for Dance night until like the later part of the day when I read the notice. Oh! Sec 1's audition results were out already, like some bimbo like that. Sequelled so loudly and made a big scene in front of the dance board. =.=''
Anyways, back to happy things :D Some of the juniors attended the prac too. YAY! We learnt a bit of steps from Sanquin which I think is really cool!
I like the pump up part, hahaa I guess only Nut understands that part :D
it's almost 1 mth to danceworks! :D

Today
There's Literature CT today, it was good :D there's dance again later, kill me right now.
I'm feeling like I'm under the Dance Prac monopoly.
HAHA, that's so history. I changed it from Dutch Trade monopoly.
I've been trying to figure out the way everyone in my class does of solving the rubik's cube.
I'm nearly there! I'll show it to you guys someday! HAHAHA, it's not geeky okay :D
Day after tomorrow is Valentine's DAY! YAY! Let's hope all good things happen to everyone on this day! HAHA, you know I sort of can anticipate what might happen to ''someone''.
Let's hope I'm right :D

:D

Okay, cath was pretty fun today, no lessons planned for us, WHOO! It was a mini CNY partaye :D
we were suppose to socialise, but it's so hard to socialise with people with poor attitude.
Perfect example of what happened when I approached Paul ( Aunty Vivian's son ),
he seriously gave me the laughter of my life. All I asked was what his name was, and he just ignored me and stuck 2 pathetic twisties into his mouth and rolled his eyes. HAHA, even when maryanne asked the second time he did the same thing. Oh, why do they even have such males around in this world? The Mer brothers are far better than him, now that I've compared.
Tsk, heaven & hell. When everything ended, I had the usual date with Mar for lunch, and she told me about how a dog bit her mouth once which left a scar there, hahahaha, I was amused.
Walked her up for her Gift Bearer's comm meeting, the sun was scorching hot. Hate those Sunday heat!
I went shopping for Valentine's Day gifts, luckily I made a list, makes it so much easier.
There's so many people this yr, whom I have to give smth to, for Vday.
It's sad that I can't celebrate it until the evening due to dance ):
I'm not ready to go back to school yet! D:
anyone mind to bring me somewhere else? where there's only laughter & happiness?

I guess I should count my blessings, lately people around me have been suffering from misery.
I really want to reach out them and do the best I can to help them in any way, but I'm at a loss too. Perhaps, god could offer me some guidance in my life.
But thank god for giving me wonderful friends, MARIEL, NUT and RU.
You guys really mean the world to me, just would like to let u know :D

You can scold me after reading what I'm about to type. Me, Estelle, is going out to CHIJMES later on to have dinner and chill with some special people, on a Sunday night which happens that the following day is a Monday! She will maybe be back home quite late.
AHHHHHH. I better go now, haven't made the reservations yet!

LOVE YOU GUYS!

hearts all over the whole tonight;

Group 1 - The '' Fruit'' Addict

Group 2: The '' Groovy ''

Group 3: The ''Bananas''

HAHAHA, like what kind of name is that? I was laughing like crazy throughout the whole program.

Was just roaming around people's blog, when I came across the Altar Servers'. The Flickr photos were very cute and so unlike them, oh well they were only 11 then :D Maryanne, I really want to be an altar boy! So that when I serve masses, I can have a ''WHOO!'' session myself.

Time for me to exercise, all that cny titbits and goodies, made me binge so much.

COUNTDOWN TO VALENTINE'S DAY:

only.....4 days left!

I'll go shopping for vday stuff tomorrow, a whole long list goes on and on!

I am very lazy to blog. :D

Everything went on cool today, after school stuff was more interesting than lessons, like a 100%. Ru and Bel stayed back with me for Stomp! first, haha eventually we had a very long delightful sushi time that we came bk late for the meeting. Saw Isabel [ the other one ], at the traffic light, hahahah she said the meeting ended already luh. Dumm dumm, she asked Ru & I to do CIP with her, which is to perform. Yup, sounds quite interesting. Anyways, went back for danceworks, I AM INSANELY STRESSED. Looking at how the seniors are doing, having all the attitude and style makes me worried. Apparently, Estelle is the only Sec 2 there :D
My goal: To attain/adapt ''the'' style.

rushed home after that for mass, ended up late again! mass was just normal, I was the only one high at tht point of time. Lalala, mariel wanted to go the parky, but it was 9 plus already so we ditched the ideaa.

Funny mummy, decided she wanted to go to Bishan to get some more thing things for CNY, so I tagged along. It was really crowded, everyone was just practically frantic about buying their things, hahaha , last min shopping does tht to you.
YAY! It's CNY celebrations tmoro, supposed to be ironic with Ru and wear the same top, but it's so hard to find red razers these days. Finally a day to camwhore :D

I just said I was lazy but I blogged so much.
Contradiction, ESTELLE.

perhaps perhaps perhaps;

Yesterday:

Mass was simply hilarious with Clarice and Mariel, I swear it was my first time making so much noise throughout the whole thing, playing with Mariel's hair is super cool :D Haha, we laughed at the most ridiculous stuff luh. What, if she had a crush on Bryan or smth. Cath after that, little bitsy bit of camwhoring sess in the toilet.

Next, to Coffee Bean with Audrey and Marmar, ultra sinful the mudpie, we chatted while the rain outside splattered, rhyming eh.
Went to Mariel's house after that, super fascinated with her room, so much things to explore. She showed me everything that I wanted to see, I'll take it as I was very lucky.
OH OH! Then there was this picture of her family with her mummy's boss's family, and I thought this red coloured old lady was her mother. I'm so stupid.

I LOVE YOU MARIEL :D

talked about how worrying it is to think of what would become of us, if we actually fought.
It was to Grandma's house next, super boring had to send the goodies mummy bought for her there. MUMMY BOUGHT A NEW TV! HOORAY :D

Today
Geog test was awesome! I'm very satisfied with the answers I gave. Had this dialogue with the principal, found out some cool issues. Danceworks after that was ultra tiring, and I have to adapt a style, according to ninabanana. It's quite true though, I've been concentrating on getting the steps right, that I neglected the showmanship part.

Ru gave me a really great letter this morning, it sorta made my day. LOVE YOU RU.
just read Mariel's blog, I always am happy after reading it.
Especially since the last entry, my name was there 5 times. HAHA, crazy I know.
Thats me.

Wednesday, we've decided to be ironic, we're gonna be Cheena twins. Both Ru & I.
We're gonna wear the same red stuff, and be walking 'ang baos'
Tonight's my family's reunion dinner, but I'm quite full.
anyways, science CT moro, so tata :D

So I lay my head back down,
and I lift my hands and pray to be only yours...
and so I woke up super early this morning at around 9 plus, considered quite early for a Saturday morning, anyways to attend the council meeting. There's this South Cluster Camp thing with I think all the IJ's Primary school, and I'm suppose to facilitate a group. Oh wells, spent the whole time writing minutes and listening. After that went home to change, because Mummy wanted to go last minute CNY shopping ;D it perks me up luh, after so long.
When we were having lunchy there, mummy suddenly got an important meeting she had to attend, so she left the poor me all alone at bugis to shop for my stuff. But it wasn't that bad, I'm very surprised myself, I actually walked the whole of bugis village and bhg. YAY! Very satisfied with what I bought today, I got a really nice nice dress, tights, flats, tops and earrings. So cool so cool! My leg's hurt like mad now.
I'm not really looking forward to cath class as much as I did before, probably it's just fatigue.
But the focal point is seeing the llamas again.
Miss them so so much,
suppose to show audrey and mariel the 2007's yearbook, haha which I look pretty weird in.
Valentine's Day's coming, gotta start planning all the gifts and cards soon.

HEARTFELT LOVE AND THANK YOUS TO RU.
your phonecall made so much difference to my day,
it's so easy to speak to you.
always so thoughtful ;D










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HELLO TO THE WORLD AGAIN!

i'm finally blogging after so long ;D

just came bk from dance pracs, as tiring as ever but extremely fruitful. So exciting! 6 weeks more to Danceworks! Met Bryan in the bussy, hahaha and talked.
I've realised that I haven't done anything much for myself lately, my life's revolving around basically on school, friends, dance, council and more projects. It's starting to get quite sickening, thanks to Mariel and Ru, what would I be without you? HAHA! YAY! Rhyming!

Details for Danceworks are out!

Date: 15 March 2008 ( Saturday ) YAY!

Venue: Grand Cathay ( Beside PS & SOTA ;D )

Time: 9 plus plus.

The group to watch out for: SAGE! ( my group!) STATIC! ( Nut's Group ) SANQUIN! ( Hakim's group )

Come and check us out if you guys are free on that day kay ;D

Anyways, I'm gonna go bath now so ciao darlings.
HAHA, to the sjiprefect, a big HELLO TO YOU:D